9:19 p.m. // 17 November 2007
Ha still using this thing...
crazy how things have changed yet so much has stayed the same... never ending story with my brother. the drama he brings and how much he's broken up this family now. nothing will ever be the same... not that i'd ever want it to be really... just don''t want to go through losing relationships... family relationships.
I've gone through so much... so many breaking points. That one night I couldn't even hold myself up. It's hard always staying so strong and dealing with so much... to be able to carry on like nothing is wrong. I never let it show... I dont want it to show... it only keeps me unhappy.
Sometimes I just want to let it all out... but then i always feel... "who cares"... No one could ever understand, feel or know what i'm going through... so why even bother crying on someones shoulder. And even then it wouldn't change anything... and i just want to let it all go............